my life doesnt have a meaning.
im a screw up.
hes a screw up too.
look at what hes done to himself.
all because i fell asleep last night when we were texting.
it was really awkward though...
i knew he was stressed out because of his fam tryin to control him.
all his replys were no longer than three maybe four words.
most were 'yeah' 'cool' 'sure' 'idk' 'thats cool' 'yup'.
what do i say to those?
i mean really, what do i say?
hes my first real boyfriend, and i really do love him.
more than words can even begin to express.
i feel his pain, his anger, his depression, his stress.
i feel everything he feels.
when he cries, i cry.
yes, my Juggalo cries.
its not a bad thing, we all cry.
so fuck u if u say hes a pussy for crying.
im gonna call him during my lunch break at school.
or text him... i just dfk anymore...
i dont know what ill do if he cuts again...
or worse - kills himself over this stress and depression his family has caused.
UGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
